Thursday, January 31, 2008

Poverty

"We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty."

--Mother Teresa

Perfect for each other

"You're not perfect, sport, and let me save you the suspense: this girl you've met, she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other."

--Robin Williams, in Good Will Hunting

Firewood

I went out this morning and chopped up some firewood for my fireplace. It's so nice being able to have a fire here every day! I don't think I'll ever have a place again without one.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Antiques, transcendence, and beauty

I went shopping for a bit this afternoon in some antiques stores. I could have spent all day there. I love antiques. It seems like other generations understood elegance in a way we've lost these days, in everything from art to homes to music to dancing to relationships and even to our worship. It's like we've forgotten that we're immortal and transcendent beings created by and designed for and looking forward to being truly, utterly consumed by beauty someday.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Beautiful Disaster by Jon McLaughlin

She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and complements.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she sees make her cry.
And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
And she needs someone to take her home.

She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfection.

She's not a drama queen,
She doesn't want to feel this way, only seventeen but tired
She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home.

‘Cause she's just the way she is, but no ones told her that's ok.
And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
And she would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster,
But she just needs someone to take her home
And just needs someone to take her home.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Y'all

I can't believe it. I've spent thirty years in Philadelphia, and tonight, after spending the evening with a group from church, I realized that I was saying "Y'all"--already! I've only been here in Georgia for a week, and it's starting already!

Healthiness

I've been learning a lot about nutrition and healthy eating recently, from what I'm reading on my own and from what I'm learning from my chiropractor. It's been neat to see myself making the difficult but important change in eating habits. I ate fairly well before, but I am becoming much more conscious of what I eat.

I went to the grocery store this morning after church and realized as I was checking out that almost all of the groceries were fruits, vegetables, nuts, or other healthy foods. No fake sugars, no processed foods, just natural food.

I've also been exercising a lot more since I've had more control of my schedule down here in Georgia, and it feels great to be getting in better shape.

It's also just good to see my own desire to truly be healthy, in every sense, with a stronger focus now on my bodily health. Speaking of which, I'll be off my sleep medicines next week, which is great. It's been a hard choice to make, but I know it's worth it.

Healthiness

I've been learning a lot about nutrition and healthy eating recently, from what I'm reading on my own and from what I'm learning from my chiropractor. It's been neat to see myself making the difficult but important change in eating habits. I ate fairly well before, but I am becoming much more conscious of what I eat.

I went to the grocery store this morning after church and realized as I was checking out that almost all of the groceries were fruits, vegetables, nuts, or other healthy foods. No fake sugars, no processed foods, just natural food.

I've also been exercising a lot more since I've had more control of my schedule down here in Georgia, and it feels great to be getting in better shape.

It's also just good to see my own desire to truly be healthy, in every sense, with a stronger focus now on my bodily health. Speaking of which, I'll be off my sleep medicines next week, which is great. It's been a hard choice to make, but I know it's worth it.

Church

I went to a new church this morning in Georgia, and it was so good to be among believers again.

One song that we sang talked about God having a plan, and being able to make a way when we think there is no way, and it was a strong reminder to me that I can trust God through the difficult times. It's been such a rough road over the last few years, but He is faithful, and will restore what has been taken away. And until it seems like that is happening, I can rely on His grace and His power to trust Him.

I cried and cried during the singing this morning, in the midst of strangers, but still sensing strong fellowship, and being reminded that I was deeply loved by God.

God first, God second, God third

"Your priorities must be God first, God second, and God third, until your life is continually face to face with God and no one else is taken into account whatsoever. Your prayer will then be, "In all the world there is no one but You, dear God; there is no one but You."

--Oswald Chambers in 'My Utmost for His Highest'

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Ballroom dancing

Wow! I just spent the last three hours at a ballroom dance, and it was so much fun! I can't wait for the next one.

Beauty

"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."

--Audrey Hepburn

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Getting plugged in

I started at a men's weekly Bible study group tonight at a local church. It's great to get plugged into fellowship with other believers here. I think I've decided on a church home, too, which is something I was hoping would not take too long to do once I got down here, and it looks like God has orchestrated that already.

Neurological chiropractor

I wanted to find a chiropractor soon after arriving in Georgia, because it's so important for healthiness. I've come to also see the strong value of a neurological chiropractor, where they focus not just on adjustments, but on the whole body, including the brain, chemical balances, and general healthiness.

I found a neurological chiropractor here, and told him about how I am trying to wean myself from sleep medicines entirely (and have almost done so), and he said I was doing very well and was in great shape, which is always good to hear, especially when you're going through something as difficult as getting off of insomnia medicines.

It's amazing, the ways they have to tell different things about what's going on inside the mind. If I weren't a writer, I think I'd be very strongly tempted to become a chiropractor. I also want to learn massage, and the chiropractor said he actually teaches massage therapy classes somewhere locally, so I might just join and get started on massage therapy, which I've wanted to learn for a while.

Neurological chiropractor

I wanted to find a chiropractor soon after arriving in Georgia, because it's so important for healthiness. I've come to also see the strong value of a neurological chiropractor, where they focus not just on adjustments, but on the whole body, including the brain, chemical balances, and general healthiness.

I found a neurological chiropractor here, and told him about how I am trying to wean myself from sleep medicines entirely (and have almost done so), and he said I was doing very well and was in great shape, which is always good to hear, especially when you're going through something as difficult as getting off of insomnia medicines.

It's amazing, the ways they have to tell different things about what's going on inside the mind. If I weren't a writer, I think I'd be very strongly tempted to become a chiropractor. I also want to learn massage, and the chiropractor said he actually teaches massage therapy classes somewhere locally, so I might just join and get started on massage therapy, which I've wanted to learn for a while.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Dancing

I went to a ballroom dance class here tonight, my first in Georgia, and had a great time. I am reminded frequently of how beautiful it is to be able to enjoy being physical, and dancing is such a good medium to do that. I can't wait for more!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Faith means

"Faith means believing in advance what will only make sense in reverse."

--Phillip Yancey

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Driving again

I can't believe I'm driving again. My carless period didn't last nearly long enough!


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Friday, January 18, 2008

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Farewell

Tomorrow I am starting my journey, and by Friday will be arriving at my new home in Georgia.

My family came over tonight to send me off. We all cooked together, making a nice breakfast dinner.

Everyone but my mom eventually left my grandmom's, but she lingered, then I walked her to her car, and we hugged, and the tears began to flow. We stood out in the cold, embracing, weeping, for probably twenty minutes. It was so hard to let go. I wanted time to stand still.

Thank you, mom. I love you. --Tim

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Saturday, January 12, 2008

To have you here

I never knew the dusk could break my heart
So much longing folding in
I’d give years away to have you here
To know I can’t lose you again.

—Fernando Ortega

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Learning to dance in the rain

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain."